holy time flies batman!!!

so time does make fools of us all...and i prefaced this blog with stating that i am notorious with losing interest and motivation to post blogs...such was the case...also, these past two months have been crazy busy with school and what not...rather than try to remember the stories i've had come up via the train and what not - i've decided to move on up (to the east side)...i also want to write about something else that's been going on with my life lately...relationships and choosing which direction your heart wants to go...i don't want this to be another whiny blog about my heart being broken and all that jazz (cause it has not)...that being said, events happened this week that have just caused me to question just what the heck i think i'm doing...my ex came rushing back into my life in the way they normally do...after hanging out with this person, i realized that i was not as over them as i thought...which is strange to me considering how we broke up...this has happened to me once before, with the first...so to put this person on level with my first just does not make sense to me...but i guess that's how it is with love...ahhh that word...i didn't think that word fit what this person and i had...especially not at the end...but apparently i was wrong...to further complicate matters - there has been a new player added to the game...and as i try to better understand this person and try to work out ways to balance this person in my life...being thrown this curve ball is not welcome...i guess being self aware does have its price...i do intend to write about another life decision that has been weighing heavy on my mind lately...but that will wait until tomorrow...for now...sorry about the whiny blog *smiles*